Tuesday Midnight

Today was rather uneventful day. I didn't feel like going to office so took a sick leave. Am i sick? I really don't know.

Its something like a nostalgia. Something missing in me. Why i am not able to enjoy happy moments? What is that i am looking for. I really don't know. Certainly my soul is not at peace. Something is eluding me. I want to be free from these mental shackles.

After spending lazy afternoon on bed, i have picked up Mein Kampf again hoping to put some restraint on my ever wandering heart. Hopefully i can learn some lessons from the Fuhrer.

Now feeling little dizzy, so its time to go to bed.  

Thursday Morning

Woke up at 5 today by the irritating buzzing ringtone of my mobile. But did i really woke up? It is a question i am asking myself. Surely i remember i picked up the phone. But what happened next? Do i remember the serene morning or do i remember the chirping of birds. No. But i was awake. Surely i solved an urgent issue. All i remember is pitch black darkness in front of my eyes.

Whats this state of mind called. I am really asking myself this question today. I will try to write more on this. Leaving for office now.